February already! I can't believe it's been a few months since I've posted anything on here! Our life has been busy and full of decisions. So much going on and so many discouraging moments. At this time, homeschooling has been one of those discouragements. Every new year of homeschooling I'm filled with enthusiasm but then something happens and I lose it. I often ask myself why am I doing this? It doesn't seem to be making a difference in the lives of my children. Things are not as I hoped they would be or how I expected them to be. I feel like I've failed.
Just recently I had an acquaintance ask me about homeschooling. She has small children and has just begun to think about homeschooling. She's thought she might like to do it but is already having her doubts and fears. I tried so hard to encourage her but also be honest in the fact it hasn't been easy, at least for me. How do you encourage when you feel so discouraged? I can't but God can. Just thought I would share what He sent me via email ; ) This is a daily devotional I'm subscribed to, hardly ever read them but this one caught my attention.
Thursday / January 28, 2010
Satan really takes advantage of homeschoolers. When you jump into something different, such as teaching your own children, you become susceptible to his attacks of doubt and fear. Unsure of your abilities, you second-guess your decisions and desperately look for affirmation and direction. Added to those doubts are questioning remarks and comments from those who don't homeschool, and soon you begin to think, "I could really mess up my children's lives if I do this wrong!" The multiple battlefronts of spiritual, emotional, and physical attack call for reinforcement from the Lord. Only His divine strength, wisdom, and power can counteract Satan's fears.
The apostle Paul understood how it felt to be attacked by Satan. When addressing the church in Corinth, he stated in 2 Corinthians 7:5, "For, when we were come into Macedonia, our flesh had no rest, but we were troubled on every side; without were fightings, within were fears." I'm sure at times Paul must have questioned if he was doing the right thing when he went on his missionary journeys to establish the early churches. Not only did the other apostles criticize his work with the Gentiles, but he also suffered at the hands of his fellow Jews and the unbelieving communities he tried to reach. Add to those fears the beatings, shipwrecks, and other persecutions, and it's no wonder he was afraid. Still, Paul continued to trust in Jesus for every need and even his very life.
Are you tired from Satan's attacks? Does it seem like when you find victory over one fear another one develops? Dear one, I wish I could tell you things will get better, but that might not be the case. The battles will probably remain. You see, if Satan can't keep your family from believing in Christ, his next goal is to keep your family from living for Christ. If you're feeling weary today, run to your Commander and Lord and let His love empower you to face every fear. In Christ's name and by the power of His blood, you will defeat Satan. Besides, the worst way you could mess up your children's lives is if you don't fight. Don't let the fears win over you! "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist stedfast in the faith" (1 Peter 5:8-9a).
Lord God, I recommit myself and my family to You today. Strengthen us to stand strong against the fears and discouragement that Satan brings to our homeschool. Let me see the plans and purpose You have for us and may our lives glorify You. In the dear name of Jesus, Amen.